"The most memorable people in life will be the friends who loved you when you weren’t very lovable."

Yeah Johnny! I love you bro…

(Source: psych-facts)

Summer 2013

You know what’s amazing? How one person can just enter your life and how much of an influence they can make upon you. It’s amazing how one person can just enter your life and you suddenly just realized that you guys are growing closer naturally. There’s no awkward silence. You guys can just talk about anything and almost everything without even realizing it. Without even knowing, you guys start slowly talking to each other every day. Without even realizing it, you guys are starting to confide in each other. Telling each other jokes, having insiders, sharing stories about your life here and there. It’s the little of each thing in between. It’s in the center of everything. It’s the laughs that develops, the tears that runs, and the memories that are gradually being created as each day pass.

They just become one of the most significant people in your life and their words are powerful to you. Their opinion about things starts to matter to you. It’s amazing how one person can just enter your life and change things around. They make you happy because suddenly, there’s another reason why life’s more bearable. Life’s more colorful, rather than dull and colorless. Promises are being made. Words seem to finally be filled with meanings. The pain you carry starts to slowly decrease because they help you bear with it. It’s amazing how one person finally seems to be different because they show you that they are. Things just seem to finally fall into place and it’s all just because of one person, but one person is capable of doing so much to you.

But just one person is capable of making you feel like shit for days, months, and maybe even a few years or so. One person who is suddenly starts drifting away, even though you guys been through so much together. Words are becoming empty. Those silences between the conversations suddenly become from golden to awkward. You’ll find your heart aching for what it used to be. You’ll find yourself having difficulty of speaking to them. You’ll find yourself looking for the right words to say to them, but nothing really comes to mind. You’ll find the conversations that once expand become less day by day. The efforts aren’t the same. The way they talk to you aren’t the same. The way they surround yourself around you just become an unfamiliar vibe.

Things just aren’t the same and things have changed. Nothing’s the way it used to be and it sucks. It sucks because one person is capable of doing all this to you. Destroying you, making insecurities grow, and most of all, one person who makes you feel like you’re not good enough. You feel worthless because even if you know you should never let one person make you feel this way, it shows how much of an impact they have made in your life in order to have the ability to tear you apart. It’s amazing how one person can do so much for you to suddenly doing so little.

It’s just all bittersweet, isn’t it? It’s just all so bittersweet because you’re thankful for them, but at the same time, you know you didn’t deserve what they put you through. It’s just amazing what one person is capable of doing to someone because suddenly, they just seem like the rest rather than someone who proved to you that they would be different.

It’s amazing what one person can do. Some people build you up just to bend and break you. Some people bring out parts of you that you had no clue existed. All throughout life we meet people and every single one of them brings something to us; gives us some sort of purpose. We come across people who will hurt us so incredibly much that it seems unbearable to go on with our lives, but the truth is, we can overcome anything we want to, if we believe in it enough, if we have faith in ourselves, in who we are.